Saturday, December 27, 2008

I HATE YOUUUU!!!!!!

"hye pija..hemm sue sihat je,fs dia terdelete ritu,smua ok je,pija mcam mana ok skarang?abg dengan dia ok je,hemm maybe next year ada smthing special will happend btwen me and her,nak tau apa dia..tunggu...hehe "

Im off, totally cant take all dis anymore. wat ru waiting for? idiot! he's going to leave u. Come on start a new life, i wish i can turn back time, never know him, never start to love him anymore.. just go AWAY

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Reflection

Nothing impress me much, watching days goes by, hopping to something impossible. im ruining my life just like dat... why im not trying to make my own life cheerful, why i owez thinking to make his life wonderful, but i almost forget dat i suppose to create my own life to be more meaningful, he already had wonderful life wit some one dat he 'loved', if im not appeared in his life, there is nothing different huh..

lydza, just look at you, how u regret ur life? owez 'being' someone dat i dream of, can i just meet wit someone who are ' my reflection '. hahaha i can beat there is no one like me in dis world, creating such a romantic and wonderful things to someone dat i loved

Dis is my fav song, REFLECTION by Christina Aquilera

Reflection
Look at me You may think you see
Who I really am But you'll never know me
Every day It's as if I play a part
Now I see If I wear a mask I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show Who I am inside?
I am now In a world where I Have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow I will show the world
What's inside my heart And be loved for who I am
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection Someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm Someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show Who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be Free to fly
That burns with a need to know
The reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think, how we feel?
Must there be a secret me I'm forced to hide?
I won't pretend that I'm Someone else for all time
When will my reflection show Who I am inside?
When will my reflection show Who I am inside?

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Blurrr...

I feel dat something missing between us, im not very sure, wat it is, i feel 'empty' everytime im wit him now, tak macam dulu.. Im not happy wit all dis. Maybe dia dah bosan dah kot. Seriously, dis makes me very upset and disappointed. Maybe he start to realize dat he's not suppose to be wit me. I can stop thinking bout him even just for a minute, but i have to realize dat maybe he doesnt think bout me even just for while, for sure he will think bout dat perempuan. Owh god, come on gurl, cheer up!! wake up!! look at you, less smile+laugh+happy, emm how come i can put smile in my face, honestly.. i felt 'empty' and lost. miss 'him' so much, miss da moments we spent together, 'him' spt yg aku kenal dulu.. aku spt hilang dia sedikit demi sedikit..dan lenyap akhirnya.

Saturday, December 13, 2008

Dis can describe how much i care bout u

The way i am
If you were falling, then I would catch you.
You need a light, I'd find a match.
Cuz I love the way you say good morning.
And you take me the way I am.
If you are chilly, here take my sweater.
Your head is aching, I'll make it better.
Cuz I love the way you call me baby.
And you take me the way I am.
I'd buy you Rogaine when you
start losing all your hair.
Sew on patches to all you tear.
Cuz I love you more than I could ever promise.
And you take me the way I am.You take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.

Saturday, December 6, 2008

If I were a boy

I luv dis song, i wish i could be a boy even just be a day ekeke why there is no good man in dis world? dunno laa. tadaaa from beyonce luv u gurl

If I Were A Boy lyrics

If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted and go

Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wanted
And I’d never get confronted for it
Because they’d stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone its broken
So they thinkthat I was sleeping alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waiting for me to come home (to come home)

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted (wanted)
Cause he’s taken you for granted (granted)
And everything you had got destroyed
It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you're just a boy
You don’t understand (yea you don’t understand)
How it feels to love a girl
someday you’ll wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you've taken her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy…

dedicated to man dat i loved

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Life Guarantee

What would u do if there is no guarantee for any stuff dat u buy at store? complicated huh.. like me, i feel dat i have "no".. opss salah "any" guarantee for my relationship. I just wan to be like anyone else, to be loved. Im hoping dat next year will bring lucky n happiness 4 me. I spent almost a year wit him, such a wonderfull moments together and sometimes its hurts a lot. Until now im confusing wit my status, i mean 'I'm wat for him?' wat i have now is guarantee for losing him, marry wit dat _____ i hate to think about dat!!!!!. Just please, I want to be looooooooooooooooovvvvvvvvveeeeeeeeeeedddddddddddddd, dats all!!!!!! someone can treats me nicely, so gentleman. can accept me the where i am, and im the only one dat he loved..AMIN

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Ramadhan... ;)

Wawawa b4 1st ramadhan i was too wooried cannot tahan my hunger ekeke, but not really bad loorr.. coz 1st ramadhan cuti la, kat umah jer boleh la tahan. 2nd day fasting at school, alhamdulillah boleh la cuma a bit tired.. haus..air..air.. wei cousin ko pose tak? ko tak pose kan! aku tau.. sbb ko bgthu aku.. ekekeke
Really hope dis ramadhan can bring happiness and blessfull, amin. Asked for someone who can love me, take care of me, dont really care who i am and my passed. and makes me 'princess' in his heart...
u know wat cousin, im counting my ending of happiness...

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

wit luv...

'us' watchn' sunset

opppss..not ready yet ar..;P






happy and sad things happened in july, his besday, his confession, and many more.. too sleepy la now. i just wan to post some happiest moments in my life. to my dear, u know how much i care bout u, even ur belong's to someone else...

Monday, June 16, 2008

Melawan Kesepian by SITI NURHALIZA

Apa pun yang terjadi
Berjalanlah tanpa henti
Airmata tertahan
Waktu untuk dijatuhkan
Nanti kita kan tahu
Betapa bijaknya hidup
Sepahit apa pun ini
Pelajaran yang bererti
Semoga kepergianku
tak akan merubah apa pun
semoga mampu ku lawan kesepian ku....

nanti kan tahu
betapa bijaknya hidup
sepahit apa pun ini
pelajaran yang bererti
Semoga kepergianku
tak akan merubah apa pun
semoga mampu ku lawan kesepian ku....

Semoga kepergianku
tak akan merubah apa pun
semoga mampu ku lawan kesepian ku....

Apa pun yang terjadi
Berjalanlah tanpa henti

-And im sure, if i go, he will be ok..

Moon

Yes..moon, i saw moon tonight. I never mentioned bout moon before. Nothing special bout moon, but dis night i saw moon wit him, near da airport. He likes to watch plane 'take off' ekeke..
I really dunno wat im doing rite now, but im happy wit him. Even i think too much bout him, try to throw him away, but i cant.. just plz dont push me frenz.. can u plz understand how hurt i am. Yes i know bout his phone, and im sure he has his own reason for dat.
6 months wit him, such a beautiful and wonderful moments, watching his tummy bigger and bigger ekeke, watching his hair longer and then cut also his sideburns ( dunno how to spell), owez ask him "bb.. klu dia tumbuh tak gatal ke?" hahaha.. maybe he boring to hear dat questions again.
Today got flu, tak suka betul. Pening.. nak jalan pun got no mood. but wat makes me happy my favorite boutique opened at 1 borneo, thank God. Welcome gurl.. fashion time. No need to melaram at KL also can 'catwalk' here maa.. so, wait dat moment.. jangan marah nyahhh..

Thursday, June 12, 2008

'PANDA'

Ehem..ehem..test one..two..three.. announcement plz.. kepada sesiapa yang bermata besar, yang ada uban, yang slalu kalah main bowling, n lastly yang slalu pening tu, eh lupa plak yang slalu bad mood jer... owh baca blog org eh? suka2 jer eh..
erm..anyway thank u for everything k, all da best 4 u.. nite2

Monday, June 9, 2008

Unhappy

erm..unhappy, yup im not happy. Takut sgt satu hr nnt dia hilang, so im starting to do all the things by myself, go shopping ( window shopping aceli..), play bowling after class, watch sunset ( but now got no sunset, hujan all da time..) like hujan in my heart.. just plz God..

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

Insomnia

What is Insomnia?
Insomnia is defined as a chronic or long-term inability to sleep. We all have nights where we cannot sleep due to stress, anxiety, eating too late, or drinking too much caffeine right before bedtime. Insomnia, however, refers to a medical condition in which sleeplessness is chronic, or occurs repeatedly.

According to the Mayo Clinic, “Chronic insomnia is defined when you have problems falling asleep, maintaining sleep, or experience nonrestorative sleep that occurs on a regular or frequent basis, often for no apparent reason.”

What Causes Insomnia?
Insomnia may be caused by stress, anxiety, or worrying. It may be caused by grief or anticipation of a loved ones death or end-of-life care. Insomnia may be caused by depression or SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder). It may be caused by feeling overwhelmed during the day, and the inability to “catch up.”
Many caregivers experience problems with sleep because they are overwhelmed with their caregiving responsibilities, and worried about their loved one’s well-being or condition. Caregivers of loved one’s with Alzheimer’s disease and dementia may experience sleep problems due to their loved one’s wandering at night. The caregiver may sleep lightly as they are listening for any movement in the house which may indicate that their loved one has gotten out of bed.

im starting to have insomnia? no.. please. even im not happy wit my real life, just plz, give me a wonderful dream .. dream wit him..

Monday, June 2, 2008

Kau SEMPURNA bagiku...

Stand here right besides u everyday, every moments together. Seeing u happy, laugh, sad, bad mood ;), and mad.. like i dont want to forget every seconds wit u. I just hope dat i can delete u from my life.. sorry.. just sorry. It hurts a lot.. sakit sangat. Rasanya senyum n ketawa tak dapat tutup semua kesedihan. Cannot sleep every night, just bcoz cant stop thinking bout you, and sometimes i really hope dat u were thinking of me too.. ( ada ker? perasan lagi), he will never thinking bout me lorhh.. I want to dedicate dis two songs just for you..

Sempurna ( by Gita Gutawa )
Dis is bcoz u are just too sempurna for me.

Cradle ( by Atomic Kitten )
I want to love u like dis song 'I will rock you like a baby, I will,
Cradled in my arms,I will keep you safe from danger,Shelter you from harm...'..

First Song:- SEMPURNA

Kau begitu sempurna
Di mataku kau begitu indah
Kau membuat diriku akan selalu memujamu

Di setiap langkahku ku kan
selalu memikirkan dirimu
Tak bisa ku bayangkan
Hidupku tanpa cintamu

Janganlah kau tinggalkan diriku
tak kan mampu menghadapi semua
Hanya bersamamu ku akan bisa

Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adlah hidup ku lengkapi diriku oh sayang engkau begitu sempurna .. sempurna

Kau genggam tanganku saat diriku lemah dan terjatuhk au bisikkan dan hapus semua sesalku

Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adalah hidup ku lengkapi diriku oh sayang engkau begitu sempurna .. sempurna

Sayangku engkau begitu sempurna.. sempurna.. sempurna..

Second Song:- CRADLE

I will rock you like a baby, I will,
Cradled in my arms,
I will keep you safe from danger,
Shelter you from harm...

There will never be another lover,
Who treats you like I do,
We can drift into forever,
On a love thats made for two...

Dont you ever say this loves not special,
Dont you ever think its not essential...
Baby...

I was only thinkin of you,
Hopin you were thinkin of me,
Two hearts beating just like one,
Agaisnt the world...
Baby...

I am always dreamin of you,
Hopin you are dreamin of me,
I could never live,
One day without your love...

I will kiss you like an angel, baby,
Cradled in my wings,
I will take you up to heaven,
Show you precious things...

If you promise that you love me,
If you promise that you care,
I will be here for you always,
And forever this I swear...

Dont you ever say this loves not special,
Dont you ever think its not essential...
Baby...

I was only thinkin of you,
Hopin you were thinkin of me,
Two hearts beating just like one,
Agaisnt the world...
Baby...

I am always dreamin of you,
Hopin you are dreamin of me,
I could never live one day,
Without your love...

Though you say you want a love,
But you dont think you believe it,
Just open up your heart,
And you know you will recieve it...
Oh baby...

Please wake up Gurl..

today, he asked me why aku kecik hati. And u know wat anne, u have to start realize dat he never feels dis relationship is more than frenz. Yup, betul orang kata, aku yang over perasan. God.. huh why it owez be me? why? why not some one else.. dah tak da org lagi ker kat dunia ni. Jus plz.. terlalu penat untuk all of dis stupid things. LOVE NEVER EXIST ANNE.. WAAAAAAAAAAKKKEEE UUUUUUUUPPPPPPPPPPPPP

What should i do, rasanya kena slalu fikir dat he belongs to someone else.. remember anne. just plz remember baby... B


Something Stupid(feat. Nicole Kidman ringtones !!!
I know I stand in line
Until you think you have the time
To spend an evening with me
And if we go someplace to dance
I know that there's a chance
You won't be leaving with me

Then afterwards we drop into a quiet little place
And have a drink or two
And then I go and spoil it all
By saying something stupid
Like I love you

I can see it in your eyes
That you despise the same old lines
You heard the night before
And though it's just a line to you
For me it's true
And never seemed so right before

I practice every day to find some clever
lines to say
To make the meaning come through
But then I think I'll wait until the evening
gets late
And I'm alone with you

The time is right
Your perfume fills my head
The stars get red
And oh the night's so blue
And then I go and spoil it all
By saying something stupid
Like I love you
I love you...

Yes, something stupid, I love you. Yes i do luv u

Sunday, June 1, 2008

My 'smile'


"Sportlight" from sunset

My 'Life'

erm.. still tak boleh tido, maybe susah hati.. or sakit hati ;( ... too confuse for everything. tak tau stand for wat wit him, and too confuse either now i am happy or suffering. huh.. life so tough, sometimes rasanya mcm malas nak fikir apa2, but why 'apa2' still keep bothering me.. napa la hati ni lembut sgt, kan bagus kalau boleh jadi pengganas mcam kak jaiba n kak maria ekeke idola tuuu... huhuhu.. but slalu fikir klu kita baik ngan org, kalau kita jadi pemaaf org akan buat mcm tu kat kita balik..( tapi rasanya tak slalu pun org buat kat aku..konpius..konpius..) maybe aku ni bukan baik pun, cuma over lurus sangat kot.

tak mau mintak bahagia lagi, sbb bahagia takkan datang pun, now nak mintak kaya jer, boleh tak?.. kekeke..( cepat amin ramai2..) aminnnn... bila fikir2 balik napa rasa macam something keep kacau2 dis feelings, erm.. rasanya aku dah tau napa, just too afraid to loose him, dats all. Hari2 fikir, sama ada aku kena lari sebelum DIA hilang or just tunggu DIA hilang, dan biar DIA pergi bawak semua kenangan. tapi rasanya klu tgu, then DIA hilang, sakit sangat.. tak mau sakit lagi, tapi tak sanggup pun bagi tgl DIA macam tu jer.. He's really make me happy, wlupun kadang2 terasa dgn apa yg DIA buat. you are my 'smile' and 'tears'... thank you

Life...

Erm.. life.. someones said dat " LIFE IS SO WONDERFUL", " EVERYDAY IS A BLOOMING DAY-love dis", and here some quotes about life from some famous person:

Somerset Maugham:
It is a funny thing about life; if you refuse to accept anything but the best, you very often get it
( yup2 i agreed wit dis....)

Margaret Bonnano:
It is only possible to live happily ever after on a day to day basis.
( dis too...)

Ghandi:
Where there is love there is life.
( sure loorrr..)

erm..dahla malas nak cari lagi, hehehe.. ermm.. life? for me ker? rasanya dah lama berhenti to think bout my life, huh.. slalunya akan fikir pasal life org lain, make sure everyone dat i loved happy. It is ok if i don't feel happy wit my life, but at least i can happy by seeing them happy.. bahagianya... ( hope 'you' will happy...)

Friday, March 14, 2008

Well,
Look like it has been a while since i post something here. hehehe bz lorh.. aceli not really bz pun ekeke... erm.. got a few thing to share, a happiest moments in February.... thanks 'Feb'...

My Valentines
Only God knows how happy i am, send me 'my valentines'.. ( walaupun dis 'valentines' belongs for someone else.. ;( ) had dinner at beach, erm.. quiet romantic hehehe coz too many people here la, but it is ok, got nyamuk too ngehh..ngeh..)

My Birthday
Dinner wit him and my best friend ever, kak ti.. muahh..muah..thank you so much. I just can't forget dat day, rainy day, wonderful night ehh..dunno la how to describe dat special day.

Him
Thank u for being here wit me, but sometimes i just too confuse either you are 'sun' or 'rain'... ermm.. let time decides everything.. but i know.. there is no happy ending for me

Sunday, January 27, 2008

Smile???

Someone ask me bout my smile... huh, smile? ada lagi ker.. hilang dah.. plz dont ask me bout my smile, my laugh, happiness..
Ask 'new year' to bring me happiness.. tak der pun.. takperlah, nak mintak 'February' pulak.. ;)
Hari ni pg jalan, want to buy shoes, converse 3 star.. ( lon3star :) ) ahaks.. but got no size la.. aiya frust nyer.. takper, esok nak cari lg, mesti cr smpai jumpa my '3 star'..

'my 3 star' ;(

Saturday, January 19, 2008

New life...eh new life ker..

so.. after few days.. everythings still under control... download and watching movies... golek2 atas katil, krooohhh..kroohh.. tu jerla setiap hari. Zin still asyik nak call jer.. ai.. pura2 macam hp silence mod hehehe..sorry.. ok now time to reduce my lemak2... so kena letak sign 'ON DIET' kat dahi hehehe.. tadi petang planned to go jogging, tapi hujan pulak so makan burger king..tambah lemah bukan buang lemak.. hehehe.. sorry perut.. nevermind keep trying..

Last week, rasanya last monday, pegi skol pkai contact lense, murid tak kenal i.. wahahaha.. dorang ingat cikgu baru..aii,, even my frenz pun cannot recognize me... lucu betul. And last friday, masa ajar PSK ada murid eja badminton --- 'Babinton' hahahahaha.. Owh God.. cikgu yg bodoh ke murid bodoh.. hehehe..

ermm... took a picture masa nak tido petang hehehe.. tgh boring but little bit sexy.. sorry.. but real beauty of ' sleeping beauty' eii.. perasan..

Tuesday, January 8, 2008

Love...

What means love? Can anyone tell me... miss him a lot, what should i do? asked him did he love me?..n the answer is...;P. eh..entahlah, anyway klu still blh sabar, sabar... still remember he told me, not to trust someone.. someone like him? Kenapalah sayang sgt dgn nik? Kenaaaapaaaa......... hate that i love you dear. Rasanya ada ker klu kita syg someone, no need to tell him how much tht we love him? ada kerr.. Rasanya semua lengkap, family, karier, frenz.. but love? Plz new year, help me to find true love, just want to be like anyone else...plz.. plz...